I came across a passage in Theoderet of Cyrus, which I think we can all relate to in these stressful times. I turned it into a poem as part of my new course of bibliotherapy.
My dear friend,
You ask why I have not kept my promise.
I’ll tell you the reason.
You yourself saw how the walls of Rhegium,
— the tall city profile,
could be seen for hundreds of years,
from lies and sophistry —
were set on fire by the Barbarians.
We thought we had only to cross
the narrow sea between Sicily and Italy
to move from the old to the new.
But violence pursued us on our boat.
Natural storms replaced soldiers.
Winds nearly gusted us into the waves.
We reached the mainland of Italy,
but found no firmness there either.
Our footprints sank into a chaotic flux.
There was no time to collect
our experiences or settle them inside ourselves,
Let alone do a translation into Latin
Of Origen’s commentary on Numbers
As I promised you.
Thanks, by the way, for the reminder.
True, the immediate dangers were over,
but they persisted before our eyes,
as memories that constantly came between us
and the page we wished to write upon.
Memories of the devastated cities and country
spilled onto our pens,
and sent them flying in another direction
from the one we aimed at.
But when we have a moment’s peace,
when night falls, when Rhegium vanishes,
when orange blossoms glisten on the sea
and stars remind us of infinity.
We take up our work.
Not to write some boring commentary
But to stir up the spirit.
To encounter the divine.
And this is the original passage of Theodoret of Cyrus…
My dear brother, I might rightly address you in the words of the blessed master, “You do well, dearest Donatus, in reminding me of this;” for I well remember my promise that I would collect all that Adamantius wrote in his old age on the Law of Moses, and translate it into Latin for the use of our people.
But, as he says, the season was not seasonable for the fulfilment of my promise, but was full of storm and confusion.
How can the pen move freely when a man is in fear of the missiles of the enemy, when he has before his eyes the devastation of cities and country, when he has to fly from dangers of the sea, and there is no safety even in exile?
As you yourself saw, the Barbarian was within sight of us; he had set fire to the city of Rhegium, and our only protection against him was the very narrow sea which separates the soil of Italy from Sicily.
In such a position, what leisure could there be for writing, and especially for translating, a work in which one’s duty is not to develop one’s own opinions but to express those of another?
However, when there was a quiet night, and our minds were relieved from the fear of an attack by the enemy, and we got at least some little leisure for thought, I setto work, as a solace from our troubles, and to relieve the burden of our pilgrimage, together into one and arrange all that Origen had written on the book of Numbers, whether in the way of homilies or in writings such as are called Excerpts,(3) and to translate them into the Roman tongue.
You urged me to do this, Ursacius, and aided me with all your might, indeed, so eager were you, that you thought the youth who acted as secretary too slow in the execution of his office.
I wish, however, to point out to you, my brother, that the object of this method of studying scripture is not to deal with each clause separately, as you find done in commentaries, but to open up a path for the understanding, so that the reader may not be made negligent, but as it is written may “stir up his own spirit” and draw out the meaning, and, when he has heard the good word, may add to it by his own wisdom.
In this way I have tried to give all the expositions which you desired; and now of all the writings that I have found upon the Law the short comments upon Deuteronomy alone are wanting; these, if God so will, and if he restores my eye-sight, I hope to add to the body of the work.
Indeed, my very loving son Pinianus, whose truly Christian company I have joined in their flight because of my delight in their chaste conversation, requires yet other tasks from me.
But do you and he join your prayers that the Lord may be present with us, and may give peace in our time, and shew mercy to those who are in trouble, and make our work fruitful for the edification of the reader.